What Is Love? #100creativedays Day 65

Love is Arizona's soft fur and the secret scent of warm kitten between her shoulders.

Love is looking at an ultrasound photo from a friend and bursting into tears over the absolute perfect miracle of life.

Love is forgiveness, like a calm after the storm. Teary eyes and desperate hugs after an amends.

Love is not lonely. It's a quiet assurance that someone thinks that you matter, and better yet, knowing that someone matters to you.

Battling Your Vices - mantras to reflect on... #4

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Battling Your Vices - mantras to reflect on... #1

Let It Go...

I'm learning about "resentment", how it creeps up and winds itself around me. It's absolute poison to the soul and often I don't even realise that my skin crawls, my eyes narrow and my nose scrunches up at the mention of certain people... or the sight of them... or the sound of their voices.

I've made a list of people. Some of them have hurt me, some of them just annoy me to such a point that I bitterly dislike them. You know the expression "I just don't like their face"? Well, half the list are made up of unlikable faces. I've heard it said that the things you detest in others can tell you a lot about yourself... oh.crap.

I came across this prayer in The Big Book, along with the instruction to say it everyday for two weeks for the person I resent. I'll be busy for a few months by the looks of things...

"Dear God, I have a resentment towards a person that I want to be free of. So, I am asking you to give this person everything I want for myself. Help me to feel compassionate understanding and love for this person. I pray that they will receive everything they need. Thank you God for your help and strength with this resentment." (BB, Freedom from Bondage: pg 552)

Quite challenging hey? So if you think you're on my list... don't worry, I'm praying good things for you... even if my teeth are clamped shut, I'm still getting the words out. Nobody said it would be easy...

Deep & Meaningful

Recently I made a mistake, I did something wrong, I messed up - however you want to put it. I'm not going to elaborate on what I did, but I let someone down. I could have covered it up and got away with it - but I hate lies. Friends told me that the truth may set me free, but that my friend would be very hurt to hear the truth. I went with my gut, and gave a full confession. My friend was disappointed and I supposed hurt. So I'm winning back trust and mending bridges. I'm very fortunate to associate with understanding people, with strength of character. In that moment I realised that I had risked losing a valuable friendship. It was the wake up call that I needed. I do wish I could have gone about getting elightenment in a better way though :-|

 

I suppose we live, we learn?