Ritual Cleaning : Day 82 #100daysofwriting

Cold
Crisp
Clean
Wrinkled
Washed
White
Sheets without dreams
Beaten out
Churned
Rinsed away
Awaiting
Warmth
Tussled dream kicks
Reluctant sleepy heads
Late night conversation
And kitten feet

Guilt Trip : Day 13 #100daysofwriting

The sniffles defeated me and I couldn't conceive of leaving my bed. I answered some mails and delegated some tasks, but I mostly slept today. I'm pretty sure that the point of a sick day is to sleep. So why do I feel so guilty?

Why?

I've also sworn to be back in the office tomorrow, guns blazing.

What am I trying to prove?

I still haven't made a move on any freelance writing. I feel frozen to the spot. Paralysed by self doubt. Did I see a sick day as an opportunity to start? I slept, I barely had enough concentration to watch a whole episode of series. Why am I beating myself up for resting when I clearly need it?

I suppose all I can recognise is that I'm a rather silly human, and go to sleep again.

Low Low Low : Day 8 #100daysofwriting

I've been on a mission to wake up earlier and last two mornings have been a success. I have also managed to get to sleep more easily. As a result my body clock has reset.
 

Maybe because winter is the season of snuggly vibes? That said, all I can think about is how much I'd like to just go to sleep right now. Again - rare - I have a nasty habit of staying awake extremely late, struggling to settle, and just not falling asleep.
 

I'm the queen if the Sunday afternoon nap, even on a sunny afternoon, yet even the hint of a street light drives me to night time insomnia. It really makes no sense.
 

I try to avoid taking medicine unnecessarily since I've cleaned up my lifestyle with regards to addictive substances. A glass of wine really did help me sleep in the old days, and I don't want to depend on something chemical now. I know there are natural options, but I'd rather do it totally naturally.
 

So far these conditions and changes are helping: warm bed, a little incense, an eye mask, drastically reduced coffee intake and all before noon, and a really cool app that cuts the blue light from my phone after sundown.
 

I apologise if my writing structure is off - just focus on the info.

Good night!

Snuggle Weather #100creativedays Day 85

After a string of bad nights, I'm totally in the snug sleepy zone.

Is it the slight shift towards warmer temperatures?
The happy consequence of dealing with my monsters?
Better support after flipping my mattress?
Muscles unwound by the superior skills of my physio?

I like feeling happy, loved and content. Maybe letting go does work...