Pass It On

I'm feeling so good.
Meds are level, I have more focus, I'm 24 days sober, my relationship with Boyfriend couldn't be better...
... I have put on 2kg of chocolate... bad Sharon.

One day I will write a whole gushing, mushy post about Boyfriend. He's really a good egg and we're both learning from each other. He popped by earlier just to kiss me. He could well be a keeper ;)

Be nice to people, ok? Make them smile, they may need it more than you know...

Spread some love...

 

Just sharing some love while my heart is glad.

I've been mood swinging all over the place. I haven't had the chance, or I suppose energy to commit anything to writing, I think I was afraid of emotionally vomitting over everyone. I feel strong today, so I will make some time this evening to update you, cross my heart.

Sane People Also Talk to Themselves? Right?

I’ve been moody lately… so I have to analyse and ask myself questions that I dread:

Do you need to up your dose?

Please no…. it’s expensive and I’m afraid that I will just keep upping and upping – it will never stop.

Do you need to go back to therapy?

Please no, I do, but it’s expensive… work has a service… but what if they say I’m not ok and send me to the loony bin? No, no.

Are you lacking vitamins on your diet?

Maybe… but, but…. I’m trying! Surely they can’t make that much difference?

Carbs make you happy… are you lacking carbs?

Carbs make me fat!!! NO NO NO

Are you exercising?

Er…. I try. But not really.

Are you happy?

What do you think??? Most of the time, but I’m miserable and lost now.

WHY?

I’m scared and I got all angry and made things worse….

SO WHAT IS REALLY GOING ON?