Adequate ; Day 70 #100daysofwriting

I started off my day well, with some recovery and spiritual readings. A line from today's reading in "Jesus Calling" by Sarah Young really stuck with me.

"Don't waste energy wondering whether you are adequate for today's journey."

Admittedly I didn't repeat it over and over in my head right through the day, but it did come to mind a few times. I don't think that I am the only person who felt a little bit inadequate today. We are under such pressure, in a world that really likes to bash what it hates without even noticing what is good. Heck, the industry that I'm in can get really hard-core judgy at times. Fortunately, I do seem to roll with the punches better these days. Or are people less critical? Or have a given then less of a gap to try to unravel me? Maybe all of the above. That said, I do doubt myself and criticise myself in some way every single day. I feel I should write it as EVERY.SINGLE.DAY. Obviously my levels of confidence ebb and flow.

Can I break off on a tangent to wonder if ebbing is better than flowing? (let's ask Google) Ok, so do I want to be the tide going out or in? Never mind, they move, my moods and confidence levels move.

So, back to the reading. The bigger theme of the reading was trusting God to have your back right through the day. I know that I don't hand over stuff enough to God during the day, so I need to work on my trust. And what is adequate? Surely I've managed to get through my day if I've managed to eat, drink, walk and not destroy anything? Do I even want to be described as adequate? Do I want to rather "rock my day"? Maybe it feeds into the concept of "not good enough", being adequate means that you are good enough, maybe not excellent, but enough to be of value, or worth?

I'm really tired now. Off to sleep, I plan I be more than adequate tomorrow!

Kickass : Day 43 #100daysofwriting

So... Last night's mini post was a gorgeous frolic in self pity city.

As can be expected; a good sleep, busy day, gym and actually giving a damn about people other than myself, helped. Oh and I moved my furniture around. 

Today was probably "worse" that yesterday, but felt so much better!

I'm really tapping into the good sporty example of certain people in my life. I gymed just a little longer and harder today. I feel like my healthier eating is helping my body and mind.

I found this medicine called "One Day Flu Cure" - which is basically a cinnamon oil suspension - I took it twice on Saturday, and have just popped a dose every morning since. My cold symptoms are greatly suppressed and I have a certain vigor about me. *chuckle*

I've also tried to be there for the people around me. This feels like bragging but it's what our purpose is... Living in community. We should all be "giving a damn" about the person across the office, the street, the world. I think the key is that you help and care but don't carry their burden on your own back. I basically got that advice first thing this morning and it changed my attitude. Look! I just passed it on to you!

OK, sleep time! Hope my positive vibes help you!

Believe #100creativedays Day 84

Busy day with a lot of talking through big issues with wise women.

I'm physically, emotionally and mentally exhausted. However, I am very happy and content as I bury myself deeper under the covers, Arizona snuggled close and a good serial killer drama on my laptop.

Everything is getting better. Things are falling into place and making sense.

Xxx

Say it now #100creativedays Day 72

Every so often I try to spread some love and joy. Usually by random whatsapp message. It isn't difficult and you will be surprised by the results. Since I have been more intentional about it and started listening to my intuition, I've had a surprising number of friends commenting on my well timed messages!
 

An easy way to start is with "good night" or "good morning" messages. I love these kinds of messages, especially when I'm single because it is a very typical "couple" kind of thing. Why not let a friend that they were on your mind just before you drift off or the first person you thought of in the morning. Add a term of endearment, if appropriate! If you dreamt of a friend and it wasn't an awkward dream, tell them.
 

"Good morning beautiful, I dreamt that we were judges on talent show for penguins... How weird?"
 

Another lovely way to brighten someone else's day is with a quote. If you go with cheesy, make it super ironically cheesy. I prefer a more sincere or spiritual quote, or anything about cats ;)

I also enjoy a random "I love you" message. I honestly say it very often, but I mean it. If you love someone, why shouldn't they know? OK again, where appropriate... Don't text your friend's partner a random "I love you"... Unless you're super tight... Even then, read the situation.
 

Message an old friend now...make their day!
 

Done? Now spread it further, be friendly to cashiers and petrol attendants, even the Big Issue seller... Just smile, say thank you, comment on the weather, sympathise with a late shift - anything, just treat them as equals.
 

Do all of this without agenda or expectation of reciprocity. Spread love and save the world.

xoxo
 

Loving more than Friday...

 

I am happy.

I am sober.

I am in love.

I am beautiful.

I am loved.

I am brave.

I am strong.

 

and I'm so blessed and lucky to have you all in my life...

 

*Pic and quote put together by me*

 

 

Come on... get positive

I'm in a negative funk again... I'm trying... seriously...