I have so much on my mind - not really in a stressed way - more like sage wisdom from good sources. There are things that I'm dying to share with the world, almost too many things.
Maybe I need to act on them before I talk about them? That way I can write \ speak with conviction.
I had an intense conversation with someone tonight. Someone who I connected with a long time ago and then we drifted apart. As we chatted away, I could identify with her journey over the last year, and got so much insight. I'd like to think that she could identify with my journey too.
She's living the dream, by tooth and nail. I admire her strength. She writes and gets paid for it. I write and hide away. Her life is not easy, but she has an enviable freedom. My life is actually reasonably easy but sometimes I feel like I've sold out for comfort, that I've lost something of myself along the way - my passion, my drive.
When it comes to kids: I'm ready to kick off my shoes and climb a tree, in tights and a skirt, to rescue a ball. I'll sit crosslegged on the floor and let sticky hands stroke my face. I genuinely care. I will go the extra mile.
Ok, I had another example, but my mind is totally blank now.
Maybe the dedication that I have to writing, to my challenges, to my sobriety... When will I feel like that about more of my life?
I think you get what I'm saying? I'm too exhausted to think anymore!
Night night all
Xx
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